This Is Me, I Am

I am a wife and mother, a daughter, sister, and friend.
I believe my purpose here is to send forth love, and to daily begin,
Begin to break generational curses that are passed down from the ones,
The role models in whom I observed were right and also severely, wrong.

As a child I looked up to those and I sought their advice,
Often in other´s ignorance, it is children, who pay a price,
For all of our examples, both good and the bad,
Can cause negative reactions, for some episodes were so bad.

I am a damaged vessel that was broken and rejected,
But thank the Lord for His mercy, for its love that He injected,
Even though, I was cast out at an early age,
My parents who adopted me loved me in spite of my rage.

At times I feel as though I can take on the whole world!
Other times my emotions and anxiety is released, and painfully unfurled,
Why am I so overwrought when in the public I must go?
By nature I love people, but when I go out my panic grows.

I´ve tried to watch for triggers to conquer this condition,
But to every effort given, I still feel overwhelmed in this position.
I am a woman that is filled with many conflicting emotions,
I hate all the labels given to me through life, this results in some commotion.

I am considered outside of the box, and my perspective is unique,
The anxiety and the trauma only brings me grief,
As I have matured my opinions of what others might think,
Is not very important anymore, for this battle I´ll defeat.

Joy Thompson
8/22/08